My dream was scrambled and thrown into depths of dispair when I received rather average grade in highschool graduation essay. Let’s be honest, I never enjoyed writing. I was struggling with spelling, grammar and organising my flow of thoughts. I still do, even in my own language. Regardless of the fact that I know I am no Shakespeare my heart was broke. I still remember how agonised I was by the fear that I’d live in the village forever! I believed university to be the only way out. However, an average score from the essay, it was not going to happen. I graduated from highschool but requested to re-take the essay next year. The results came back - average. At that point, I accepted that I can’t write! I believed it! I decided that all kinds of pens should stay away from me and moved on with my life.
Almost a decade later I repeated history by writing and re-writing my bachelor thesis (without a pen). I have a soft spot for Rosa, Miriam and Rinske forever for helping me through that. Turns out this was only warmup for total breakthrough in August 2019 when I started journaling! I am still amazed by myself! I actually did it! My writers career began with pulling out used pages from a gray notebook where I kept patient records during internships. Every day I wrote down 3 things I am glad and grateful for. That went smoothly because I already mentally practised gratitude daily. Couple of months later, I started writing about my fears. Last week I wrote in the very same journal how glad I am that I started writing on a daily basis and how it serves me. Read carefully, it might be the only sneek peek you ever get into my journal.
1. Creates clarity (my thoughts are scattered all over the place)
2. Materializes my thoughts (and there are many)
3. Helps me to speak my perspective and share it on scale
4. Makes the right people want to do business with me
I hope this post inspires you to "mind your own business" and to write! Amongst others you are witnessing my goodbye to an old, stubborn and rotting belief right now. It feels incredibly uncomfortable! At the same time, I am confident that starting this blog is the most loving and logical thing I can do – for the sake of myself and others! You have to crack a few eggs to make an omelet.
留言